re-creation

michael graduated from the police academy last night.
it was so intense. the mayor was there. a newscaster was the guy introducing everything. there was probably about 600 loaded firearms in that room. :P it’s bizarre to still not really feel super comfortable around most police officers, but with him it’s totally different. he’s just this nerdy guy that goes to trivia nights (and wins) and is a d&d dungeon master and knows lots of movies and has impeccable moral standards… some officers are dicks, but so are some cashiers and bankers and people that work at walmart and anywhere else. anyone can be a dick. they’re just people. i am learning this, slowly.
i love him. more than anything, i love him.
so proud of him and so afraid of what this city does to people all at the same time. 

michael graduated from the police academy last night.

it was so intense. the mayor was there. a newscaster was the guy introducing everything. there was probably about 600 loaded firearms in that room. :P it’s bizarre to still not really feel super comfortable around most police officers, but with him it’s totally different. he’s just this nerdy guy that goes to trivia nights (and wins) and is a d&d dungeon master and knows lots of movies and has impeccable moral standards… some officers are dicks, but so are some cashiers and bankers and people that work at walmart and anywhere else. anyone can be a dick. they’re just people. i am learning this, slowly.

i love him. more than anything, i love him.

so proud of him and so afraid of what this city does to people all at the same time. 

i’m sorry

I’m wasted, losing time
I’m a foolish, fragile spine
I want all that is not mine
I want him but we’re not right

In the darkness I will meet my creators
And they will all agree, that I’m a suffocator

‎People speak sometimes about the ‘bestial’ cruelty of man, but that is terribly unjust and offensive to beasts, no animal could ever be so cruel as a man, so artfully, so artistically cruel.

—Fyodor Dostoyevsky (via likeafieldmouse)

(Source: caseysdeathblog, via daddyfuckedme)